This week was pretty rough on me, but this Sunday I went to church, just trying to do my best, and what a wonderful relief that was! what a blessing! I do not know that I even had the faith to do anything more than that, but I took the Sacrament and thought of Jesus Christ's sacrifice for us. I thought of the Savior in Gethsemane, and on the cross, and the burden that He bore for us, and from that point on my burdens were lifted. I felt at peace, I felt happiness. I don't really understand it, but The Lord in His infinite grace lifted from my shoulders that which weighed me down, and gave me the chance to look around me with new eyes, and a new heart. How can we ever express the gratitude and the love that so great a work deserves! I suppose we never will be able to.
I am glad to be on His errand and about His work. My Grandma wrote this to me, and I think that it catches pretty well the new Spirit I have felt this week: "Pray, listen, work, love, take time for kindness, forgive others, forgive yourself, and depend on Heavenly Father to make your work right. His time, His way."
I am truly more aware of my weaknesses now more than ever, and I suppose that only leaves me enough room to turn to our God for His divine Help. I can look back now and see that I needed that rough week, and even those mistakes. I am grateful that the Lord gave me those trials to have, I cannot know His mind and His will always, but I guess that I do not. I pray that He will continue to guide me as He has until now. No one knows better than He that I need it.
My love to all!
Elder Bevan